What Am I Right Now?

Life is a Role-Playing Game which the main character is me. It started since I was born and I finished it when I dead. Like in a game, I choose my own way through the game and there are infinite amount of process and ending. I am still in the process though. From so many different path, I took the most difficult one. I chose the path which has the best result. The opportunity cost of this path is very expensive and the competition is very high. That makes only less people want to go through this path. I gave up my beautiful childhood life and my alluring teenage life. But, here I am. Lost in a tremendous university that located in a beautiful small town of a state which located in the middle of a most powerful country in the world. 14,440.78 kilometers (8,973.1 miles) far away from home with 13-hours difference. My dad once said to my mom before I leave my home, “Do you know how far our son will be?”

“Nope”, replied my mom.

“You look down to the Earth, you dig it up through its mantle, its outer core, its inner core, after that you still dig it up in straight line through its outer core and its mantle once again, when you reach the surface, that is where our son will be. In short, he will be exactly on the other side of the world”.

Yes, I am on the other side of the world now. Living alone and not know even one person here. No relatives and no friends. But, it is where the challenges started. Only few people has a chance to experience it. And I am being proud of myself because I am one of that few people. I think I choose the right path.

I am studying Chemical Engineering at University of Missouri right now. Everyone says that Chemical Engineering is one of the most difficult major in Mizzou (nickname for University of Missouri) but for me, it is not. I love Chemistry, Math, and Physics so much and my grades on those subjects are extremely amazing. There is no reason I not take that major. In contrast, I really hate every social sciences plus Biology. In college, I can choose what I want to learn. I really happy because I able to not take any social sciences subject and no one force me to take them even though there are 3 subjects required to finish my degree.

One thing I really hate now is 8 o’clock morning class. I have 3 days in a week that force me to wake up very early in the morning. The most horrible thing is 2 of them are Economics which is social sciences. The perfection of my suffering come on those days. But fortunately, my last class is Math which I love so much. So it is just like I am suffering first and be joyful at the last.

After school hours, I always go to library to tackling down some assignment. I hate to spend my night time to study or doing some homework that is why I do that on late afternoon. While studying, I always listening to music. I always put my headphone’s jack to one of the PC in library and open YouTube to stream some songs before I go on with my study.

As a man, my preference of music is quite strange. I hear only 3 types of songs: Linkin Park songs, Original Soundtrack of Japanese Animation (Anime), and Girl’s Generation songs. Listening to Linkin Park songs is actually what people who born around 80’s do because Linkin Park is very famous in early 2000. I was born on 1996 though. Listening to OST of Anime is quite normal for grown-ups boy like me in my country. But here, in US, no one do that. Even my roommate thought that I was joking when I told him. He looked like I told him that I can fly. For him, it is unbelievable. Listening to Girl’s Generation (a Korean girl band) songs is actually what girls do. I believe only 10% of all boys in the world that listen to their songs. No wonder my friends never allow me to play a song from my phone in front of them.

After my study, I always go to my room and will never go out before next morning come. I rarely hang around with my friends except on the weekend. Many things I do inside my room. Sometimes, I do some dormitory work such as washing my clothes and sweeping my room’s floor. But, most of the time is the recreation time. You could give me a title “Hardcore Gamer” because I really put almost all of my spare time to just playing game. Many games I have been played and most of them are either RPG or action RPG. What makes me think that life is also a game is because life and game share many common factors. I think if I can play a game beautifully so that I can live a beautiful life also. This is the source of my optimistic.

I also love to watch Japanese Anime and reading Japanese Manga in my spare time instead of playing video games over and over. Even though people thinks only kids do that, in reality some of Anime and Manga are created for young adult. Many of them are talking about things that children will not able to know such as politics and love. I like the ones which the main story is to make you feel so sad. It could make me realize how happy I am. Such a good reflection for me.

Everyone has his own uniqueness. All of the things above is what my uniqueness is.